Nusrah's

Here comes the rush Oh snap, I did it I've done it Not sure of this gut feeling Should I trust it? Or let it tells them That constellation Showed the path And now I have found  My way, direction I should take a leap, no? Yeah I think the same too.

That night We danced to every beat Effortlessly sinking in Nothing worths more The feel was everything Just how we want it wanted it. That night We talked to every second Hopelessly ignoring reality Everything made sense Even when we close our eyes We still see our souls felt it too. That night We parted forever The sound of you Will never be the same This time there's none Though the roof caved in The truth was never out. That night After a while, not long ago I heard of you You still sound the same Then I remember My own purpose of existence I'm never the same again.

I cried again there's no utter reason but I did anyways. it's scary to know the fact that at the end of the day you have to face it all alone no turning back just you and destiny. that ghost that I fear of it's not lurking outside it lies within what's scarier is that I never do realise until it consumes me. I contemplate for the things I've done wrong because time is always enemy unless I've got a time machine nothing else changes and things were permanent. I despise this feeling of not knowing you see, I'm never good enough probably because I should have never did I fit in the context because again, fear. I am in my shell making it indestructible but I know I will be needing some sort of space filled in can't say how much just sufficient to help me through. Oh how selfish must I have been to actually think of nothing but me, myself and I the world is not only me life is everything around you and I guess ther

Independent? Serenity? Accountability? Isolation? Bizarre? Blimey, I'm at loss of words I'm not so sure anymore It's so peculiar finding yourself questioning all over again you own purpose Maybe I'm one year older now honestly I'm still as confused as I was I'm disappointed For I have not found what I'm searching for Looking for answers Sometimes I stumbled upon some things Things that move this cold heart Coincidentally taught me something else Even when I cannot fathom these thoughts mostly Again Maybe these pair of eyes got blinded Chasing after temporary beauty No matter, things fade eventually Or so I might think of it I swear, never have I ever felt this Shivering like the cold leaf Groping for every hold I can get I know of my capabilities This time I feel Vulnerable? Immortal? Attached? Feeble? Committed? Blimey, I'm at loss of words

that melody so familiar yet so far so soothing yet so depressing so harmonious yet so deafening hold it in, please everything seems so different now that I could sense things I could reason out almost even barely still I managed that melody so familiar yet so far so soothing yet so depressing so harmonious yet so deafening hold it in, please eventually I got it hard to perceive at first somehow with the guts I mustered I could breathe...again slowly and carefully I weaved my life that melody so familiar yet so far so soothing yet so depressing so harmonious yet so deafening hold it in, please you not here surprisingly not that hard even I am still taken aback I rose, higher even without you dragging me down it is possible that melody so familiar yet so far so soothing yet so depressing so harmonious yet so deafening hold it in, please life is random unnecessarily fulfilling sometimes got

this pair of eyes reflect you as you saw them never did you knew they see more of things if only you'd understand fragile like a glass it shines when polished cleaned regularly but like all china when the time comes, they break too. once broken considered sold there can never be glued back no matter how you try broken things remain broken even if you mend them endlessly these eyes, held water moist when they desire dry when they mourn somewhere in between too if only you do not know what it is just when things are falling back boy were you very wrong one point can be turned totally then you found yourself contemplating again your eyes were so dry oozing those sadness away nothing was left there but anger and hatred to nothing but yourself grief, it is supposed to be it is not that you want it that feeling became so addictive you've grown to it and succumbed to it if you could only see through my eyes and fathom every sparkle then may

nervous? hell yeah I am days just passing by without you realising time's up it's time to go do what you're supposed to do let's go people! at least that's how I imagined it though my surroundings is just fine I guess the fire in my head just spread or I just overthink yeah maybe that now you might be wondering what's in her mind? what she intends to do now? what is her motive? what the hell is she thinking? many things going on and I don't know which to choose everything looks so good tempting risky at the same time of course there's always risk it's not school anymore no one is telling you what to do there is no homework given no teachers scolding you no curfews no punishment no chores just you and your life reality slaps you really hard when you dream too much you tend to fly if you're flying to somewhere safe it's good, at least you'll know where to land when you fly too high then you lose s