Nusrah's

that remnant now she learns to remember it the air the ambience everything, just so peachy she could still remember the footsteps, the monotonous guidance to solidarity, how her hands trembled, shaking for she was so scared, but she did it anyways She had no idea what bravery nor courage was She just did it He held onto it, every bits of light he could grasp firmly, he stowed it within searching for the monumental moment to let it shine on, diamond such a little too much would harm the little girl that sunshine you see, she's naive and blunt yet there lies a beauty kid's innocence she believe she could, so she did it. life goes on she grew up but he grew cold nothing in between just reality and that's when she realised she's just dreaming no word, silence still deafening.

howdy been a long day nothing much just surviving barely just realise I wasn't thought everything though I knew mostly for some reason I lack even more but hey that is life sometimes you gotta make lemonade sometimes you just got the zest either way you're learning I learnt, hopefully some prove worthy some prove petty bottom line you're happy and that is all there is to know of even with the scars even with the bruises you made it through and that's how gibberish life can be it is nonsense but you're in it live anyway. *sigh

Telah terkubur segala mimpi Kerna takut akan dilanyak Lalu aku hentikan fantasi Mungkin kerna aku tidak layak Kadang ada mau terbang tinggi Aku bisik jangan nanti kau yang rabak Lupa aku akan gadis bercita tinggi Yang mampu lalu segala onak Dibakar dengan semangat jati Tidak kira aral mana banyak Yang penting manifestasi diri Kalau diberi gunung pun dia tak gentar Sekonyong angin monsun lalu Meniup segala apa yang ada Rapuh runtuh segala panji Kerna tiang sudah tidak berdiri lagi Ya Rabb, aku mau saja lari Jauh ingin ku lari, terbang kalau mampu Hatta realiti tak lagi indah seperti disangka Pejamkan mata aku ingin menjadi buta seketika Dan ingin dibuai mimpi kejayaan pasti Aku pentaskan hidup walaupun fana Nikmat sementara itu yang aku berpaut Sedih tapi aku buang jauh jauh Kerana realitinya aku lagi miskin Hingga suatu saat aku tersedar Mimpi tak ke mana kalau tak digoncang Lalu aku runtuh segala hiasan indah Ribut angin mengukuhkan rasa hati Mengorak untuk terus hidup lagi Ya Rabb, a...

I've done my best I've tried I really did Every time I see light Darkness proved me wrong Every time I see hope Fear told me off Every time I see white Black convinced I was worse I know you have loads on your plate Everywhere you go you tend to irate Basically I was like a play-mate Till reality came maybe it was fate It's unlike me to contemplate Maybe you find it's hard to relate Everything seems to be running late Until that day come, you will remember the date Oh Lord, I'm so good at disguise You can't tell behind these eyes Every consequences, every lies Wishing to be free from the whys If only there is a way No, an escape I say Because I dare not say nay To every piece of wish you lay No, I'm not okay But I'll resuscitate myself anyway I guess that's the kind I choose to be Eventually truth will set me free

Here comes the rush Oh snap, I did it I've done it Not sure of this gut feeling Should I trust it? Or let it tells them That constellation Showed the path And now I have found  My way, direction I should take a leap, no? Yeah I think the same too.

That night We danced to every beat Effortlessly sinking in Nothing worths more The feel was everything Just how we want it wanted it. That night We talked to every second Hopelessly ignoring reality Everything made sense Even when we close our eyes We still see our souls felt it too. That night We parted forever The sound of you Will never be the same This time there's none Though the roof caved in The truth was never out. That night After a while, not long ago I heard of you You still sound the same Then I remember My own purpose of existence I'm never the same again.

I cried again there's no utter reason but I did anyways. it's scary to know the fact that at the end of the day you have to face it all alone no turning back just you and destiny. that ghost that I fear of it's not lurking outside it lies within what's scarier is that I never do realise until it consumes me. I contemplate for the things I've done wrong because time is always enemy unless I've got a time machine nothing else changes and things were permanent. I despise this feeling of not knowing you see, I'm never good enough probably because I should have never did I fit in the context because again, fear. I am in my shell making it indestructible but I know I will be needing some sort of space filled in can't say how much just sufficient to help me through. Oh how selfish must I have been to actually think of nothing but me, myself and I the world is not only me life is everything around you and I guess ther...